It would mean that I can look to a future again. I could be the grandmother i have always dreamed of being, the same as my mum has been to my daughters.
I would be in control of me again. I could stop worrying about being a burden to my family and I could stay in the job I love doing. Stop being frightened to go out alone. Stop apologising for holding people up, stop being embarassed and making jokes to cover my fear.